It was the longest night of the year. Winter solstice, I recalled. I was sitting on the floor of our front porch while trying to name all the constellations I could find. The December breeze was music of Christmas spirit and the sky was an art of glittering stars.
I invited him to come over since his house was just few blocks away. I just wanted to be with him at that time. He's the reason why I couldn't stop smiling lately, and he was the only person who had put an effort in me. He's the instant best friend that I've found.
He was smiling when our eyes finally met. He sat beside me and we watched the sky as we told each other stories from silly to serious to nonsense stuff. It's like we couldn't run out of things to say. He's actually a quiet man, but I think he had found his comfort zone around me, and I couldn't be happier that he could smile that big when we're alone together. I told him things I never told anyone before, even all the pain I had to endure because of loving the wrong people. He opened himself up and made me see his demons transparently. I showed him a side of me I never let anyone see.
Without any word, he gripped my hand tight. Our fingers crossed and all I could think of was how on earth did I just meet this person now. Why had I not met him earlier? All the pain from the past flashed through my brain (at least there was no longer a pierce in my heart, and I'm thankful).
But I knew the stars had reasons why we had to experience destructive storms first before crossing paths. I knew the stars had reasons why we had to get our hearts burned first.
I wanted to tell him that I would never hurt him like what the girl before me did. I would never cheat on him, because I knew how it felt to be cheated on. I would never make him feel guilty for something he never did and make him feel that he's never enough because I knew exactly how it felt to be taken for granted. I wanted to tell him that I would never let him go, because I knew right then that he's worth it.
There was silence as we continued watching the night sky. It was already 2AM. A little later, a shooting star appeared. We both closed are eyes for a little while.
When we opened them, I asked him what his wish was all about. All he did was give me a smile and a forehead kiss. My impulse just made me wrap my arms around him, forget the world for a moment, and embrace the best winter solstice I've ever had.
I invited him to come over since his house was just few blocks away. I just wanted to be with him at that time. He's the reason why I couldn't stop smiling lately, and he was the only person who had put an effort in me. He's the instant best friend that I've found.
He was smiling when our eyes finally met. He sat beside me and we watched the sky as we told each other stories from silly to serious to nonsense stuff. It's like we couldn't run out of things to say. He's actually a quiet man, but I think he had found his comfort zone around me, and I couldn't be happier that he could smile that big when we're alone together. I told him things I never told anyone before, even all the pain I had to endure because of loving the wrong people. He opened himself up and made me see his demons transparently. I showed him a side of me I never let anyone see.
Without any word, he gripped my hand tight. Our fingers crossed and all I could think of was how on earth did I just meet this person now. Why had I not met him earlier? All the pain from the past flashed through my brain (at least there was no longer a pierce in my heart, and I'm thankful).
But I knew the stars had reasons why we had to experience destructive storms first before crossing paths. I knew the stars had reasons why we had to get our hearts burned first.
I wanted to tell him that I would never hurt him like what the girl before me did. I would never cheat on him, because I knew how it felt to be cheated on. I would never make him feel guilty for something he never did and make him feel that he's never enough because I knew exactly how it felt to be taken for granted. I wanted to tell him that I would never let him go, because I knew right then that he's worth it.
There was silence as we continued watching the night sky. It was already 2AM. A little later, a shooting star appeared. We both closed are eyes for a little while.
When we opened them, I asked him what his wish was all about. All he did was give me a smile and a forehead kiss. My impulse just made me wrap my arms around him, forget the world for a moment, and embrace the best winter solstice I've ever had.