I search every night.
Use all the connection there might be.
But it seems impossible.
The harder I try,
The further I get.
Use all the connection there might be.
But it seems impossible.
The harder I try,
The further I get.
I search every night.
Use all the connection there might be. But it seems impossible. The harder I try, The further I get.
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It’s day 3. Then I was reminded of something. This company. The cadets. This is where the lost soul was. This is what the lost soul was. The lost soul almost made it. But then, the lost soul disappeared. A year and a half already that the lost soul went missing. I happen to visit the lost soul’s account. I read something which made me drop a tear or two. No one knows where the lost soul is. No one has found him yet. No one. Written by Lira Keep talking, I want to listen to you. Your voice sounds like a harp, a beautiful music that makes me want to hear you more. Keep talking. Tell me stories about her: how you loved her, how you cared for her, how you longed for her. You always have something to say about her and I don’t mind hearing them. But it hurts. Of course it damn hurts. But I want you to drive the knife deeper – until I’m bleeding, until my heart stops pumping blood, until I can no longer feel pain. Just keep talking. Tell me your doubts and fears about her, why she makes you uncertain of your emotions, why she makes you laugh. I love listening to your carefree laugh. It sounds so genuine, I wish she can hear that the same way I do. Please don’t stop talking. I can fight sleep just to keep up with your usual stories. You are alone in your house and thoughts about her suddenly drift into your mind. You sleep late and I don't want to leave you awake alone. I can always stay with you and you can always stay with her. Keep talking. Ask me again what I dream about at night and I will not lie to you this time. I dream about you, of us, defying the cares of this world. I dream of the mornings I get to spend with you, inhaling the smell of coffee that we both love. I dream of the nights that I’ll just listen to your voice that will soothe my tired soul. I dream about you every time, but you dream about her. Go on and continue talking. If you want to relish your time with her, go on, I’m listening. I’m always glad to know your thoughts. You think of so many things. Sometimes, I wish I am one of them, too, because you never left my mind. Don't stop talking.lead me out of the crowd again so you can share your moments with her. Sometimes I wonder why she couldn't see how wonderful you are. I wonder how your jet black eyes stir every emotion inside of me. Why can't she feel that? Why can't she feel you? Why can't you feel me? Now stop talking. Keep quiet and listen to my heart. Can you hear how fast it beats for you? No, because you're always talking and I’m always the one listening. Written by RosieSamahan mo akong alalahanin Ang masasayang alaala natin Ang mga panahon na kay tamis Dahil sa pagmamahal na labis Samahan mo ako sa pag-ngiti Habang sinasariwa ang mga sandali Noong ako’y mahal mo pa At ika’y akin pang sinta Samahan mo akong mainis Sa mga away na lumabis Sa ating mga paglisan Kahit na may alitan Samahan mo akong lumuha Sa gitna ng ulan Sa labis na pagsisisi At pagdadalamhati Magbalik tayo, at samahan mo ako Sa mga pagkakataong unti-unting naging abo Sariwain natin aking irog, sa huling sandali Ang mga panahong natapos, na nais kong limutin Samahan mo ako sa aking pagbabalik Sa kung sino ako, ako’y nanabik Paalam mahal ko, sa huling pagkakataon Paalam, Salamat at hanggang sa muli Written by Leonel Brandon AcostaPara sa’yo, Kumusta? Maaring natatandaan mo pa ako o sadyang sa tagal na ng panahon na tayo’y hindi nagsama ay nalimutan mo na kung sino ako. Alam kong masaya ka na ngayon kasama ang mga bago mong kaibigan. Ako? Heto, nandito pa rin sa kung saan mo ako huling iniwan. Hindi naman ako umalis dahil nagbabakasakali akong babalikan mo ‘ko. Hindi ko na rin alam kung gaano katagal na akong naghintay: oras, araw, buwan, taon – hindi ko na maalala. Kaibigan, sa panahon na hindi mo ako binalikan nandito lang ako sa kuwartong madilim, napakadilim. Nagsisiksikan kami ng mga katulad ko dito, ang iba’y sadyang sumuko na at tuluyan ng lumisan. Pero ako, hindi ako nagsawang naghintay para sa’yo. Naniniwala pa rin akong balang araw ay pupuntahan mo ako at ilalabas sa kwartong ito. Isang tanong lang ang sadyang tumatakbo sa aking isipan: kailan? Naaala ko pa ang una nating pagkikita sa isang aklatan, malaki ang iyong ngiti nang ako’y iyong lapitan. Naririnig ko pa rin ang boses mo nang binanggit mo sa akin ang iyong pangalan upang magpakilala. Maging sa ibang tao’y binabanggit mo ako, at aaminin kong hindi rin masukat ang aking kaligayahan. Subalit isang araw, isang banyaga ang pinakilala sa’yo ng iyong mga magulang. Alam kong masaya ka, alam kong walang sisidlan ang iyong tuwa. Alam ko dahil nakita ko iyon noong una nating pagkikita. Siguro maghihintay na naman ako ng marami pang taon bago mo ako muling mapansin. Ang nais ko lamang ay makasama kang muli. Kaibigan, natatandaan mo na ba ako? Natatandaan mo na ba ang mga pinagsamahan natin? Umaasa ako na balang araw ay ako’y iyong balikan. Balikan dito sa madilim na kuwartong ito. Kuwartong nakasaksi ng iyong paglisan. Paglisan mo sa akin na naging sanhi ng aking paghihintay. Paghihintay sa’yo na hindi ko alam kong may patutunguhan ba. Umaasa, Aklat Written By Karen BojanginI can still hear their voices in my head. That athlete. His basketball calls. That beautician. His thoughts on my hair. That old folk. His morning greetings. That woman. Her laughs at my jokes. That easygoing man. His birthday chants. Now they're gone. But I hear them. I still do. Now they're memories. I cannot afford to lose. I will not to forget. Written by liraIt was the longest night of the year. Winter solstice, I recalled. I was sitting on the floor of our front porch while trying to name all the constellations I could find. The December breeze was music of Christmas spirit and the sky was an art of glittering stars. I invited him to come over since his house was just few blocks away. I just wanted to be with him at that time. He's the reason why I couldn't stop smiling lately, and he was the only person who had put an effort in me. He's the instant best friend that I've found. He was smiling when our eyes finally met. He sat beside me and we watched the sky as we told each other stories from silly to serious to nonsense stuff. It's like we couldn't run out of things to say. He's actually a quiet man, but I think he had found his comfort zone around me, and I couldn't be happier that he could smile that big when we're alone together. I told him things I never told anyone before, even all the pain I had to endure because of loving the wrong people. He opened himself up and made me see his demons transparently. I showed him a side of me I never let anyone see. Without any word, he gripped my hand tight. Our fingers crossed and all I could think of was how on earth did I just meet this person now. Why had I not met him earlier? All the pain from the past flashed through my brain (at least there was no longer a pierce in my heart, and I'm thankful). But I knew the stars had reasons why we had to experience destructive storms first before crossing paths. I knew the stars had reasons why we had to get our hearts burned first. I wanted to tell him that I would never hurt him like what the girl before me did. I would never cheat on him, because I knew how it felt to be cheated on. I would never make him feel guilty for something he never did and make him feel that he's never enough because I knew exactly how it felt to be taken for granted. I wanted to tell him that I would never let him go, because I knew right then that he's worth it. There was silence as we continued watching the night sky. It was already 2AM. A little later, a shooting star appeared. We both closed are eyes for a little while. When we opened them, I asked him what his wish was all about. All he did was give me a smile and a forehead kiss. My impulse just made me wrap my arms around him, forget the world for a moment, and embrace the best winter solstice I've ever had. WRITTEN BY mS. cLAUDINE cHELSEA t. fAYLOGNA, eiC-jPIAPLM@25Tumatakbo ang oras, lumalalim ang gabi Ngunit heto pa rin, nagbabakasakali. Tik, tok, tik, tok. Hanggang kalian ba? Pumarito ka at ang sakit ay ibsan nawa, Ng iyong matamis na ngiti o tawa kaya, Pero, Mahal, wala akong magagawa. Hihintayin na lamang kita hanggang dulo, Hihintayin na lamang kita hanggang matuto Na hindi ka niya mahal at ako ang nandito, Bakit hindi mo lisanin ang mapait na totoo? Kitang kita ang sakit sa mata mong maganda, Halika’t hayaan mong mahalin na lamang kita. wRITTEN BY ROSIE Masaya akong marinig ang tawanan nila. Sinong mag-aakalang makakarating silang lahat? Marami sa kanila ay bumaybay pa mula sa malalayong lugar. Sa dami nila’y hindi ko na nga mamukhaan ang iba. Isa isa silang lumalapit patungo sa kung saan ako naroroon. Hindi ko man makilala ang lahat ng bisita, nariyan naman si Mama upang sabihin sa’kin kung sino-sino sila. “Si Enteng, pinsan mo kay Tiya Helena. Siya ‘yung nag-abroad dati, kaya baka hindi mo na talaga siya kilala.” Doon ko naisip na bawat taong ipapakilala sa’kin, may kani-kaniyang istorya. Mga istoryang gugustuhin kong masubaybayan ang susunod na kabanata. Gaya ng nakagawiang family reunions na sabay sa aking kaarawan, ‘di makakaligtaan ang pagbabalik-tanaw. Waring nakasakay ang mga nakikinig sa isang makinaryang may kakayahang bumalik sa nakalipas. Malungkot o masaya man ang alaala nilang kasama ako, para sa akin, lahat ‘yon importante. Ang araw na ito ay puno ng kamustahan. Simple lang ngunit ang mahalaga ay sama-sama. Maraming pagkain. Bumubuhos ang mga inumin. May mga palaro, at maraming nagbibigayan ng barya't mga perang papel na bago. Ang sarap nilang panoorin. Gustuhin ko mang makisali ay hindi maaari. Hindi ko kayang gumalaw, hindi ko kayang makisigaw. Wala akong magawa kun’di ipikit ang aking mga mata at lasapin ang bawat sandali. Lubos kong pinakikinggan ang bawat winiwika nila habang ang likod ko ay nakadantay sa animo'y malambot na higaan. Higaang hinati ng isang malaking salamin na ginamit upang hindi ko maramdaman ang patak ng pagka-ulila. Nakaguhit sa aking mukha ang labis na kapayaan sapagkat ang araw na ito ay ang araw na mahal ako ng lahat. written by berniAll of the sudden after such sign, Realizations have come to mine. Lad who’s been there from the very start, One that I dull-witted took for grant. New girl he has replaced me right now, Emptiness is what I feel somehow. Distance we have became more afar, Eerie feeling that is up to par, Margined they are with a single snap. Endless colloquy that has reached its alp, Sensuousness that is far-fetched to hike, Ambivalent towards what I like. More are the days that has passed this chance, Optimism till now is my stance. Never will I give up is my pledge, Trust you despite stories other dredge. Amidst all things we have been through, Lambent fondness does away that rue. Venturing out this intimacy, Oozing hereafter is what I see. Written by: Rmae Tamayo |
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